I think I have heard a million times that stress isn't good for me or the Larva, but sometimes I feel like I am at the end of my rope and don't know what to do.
(No "tie a knot and hang on jokes" please.)
My biggest issue comes when the stress is directly related to people that surround me. How do I make choices between the health of my Larva and myself versus other people's feelings? I just have the deepest desire to curl up in a ball and ignore those people that stress me out.
Unfortunately, that's apparently not acceptable at work. Or at home.
I wish I were a Bear. A huge Mummy Bear. And I could take my cub-Caterpillars and hide in a cave all winter. Then show up next Spring with three cubs, and deal with people then. At the very least, I wish I could surround myself with just the people who are supportive of me and the Larva (and Hubby and the Caterpillars).
This level of stress is just not healthy! Especially not right now.
~Lone Butterfly )i(
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Friday, August 22, 2008
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
I would like to have an excuse. One for why I have been incapable of blogging.
But I don't. There's no excuse.
Except for the part where I've lost a total of 6 pounds, because I have yet to consistently keep food down. It's been about 9 weeks since this all began, and even water can still make me queasy at times.
I went 2 full days last week without being sick. That was awesome. And at my last doctor's appointment I had maintained my weight - instead of losing weight. That's also awesome.
But why? Why am I so very sick?
It's a cute reason. Two little arms and two little legs. And ears, can't forget the ears.
I got to see the ears last week. So did Hubby.
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The ears (and all the other parts) are 13 weeks and 6 days along. That means that we should see the ears up close and in person somewhere around February 20, 2009. We don't know if they are girl ears or boy ears, yet. (And before I get the onslaught of "if you are sick, it's gotta be a girl" - please know I've HAD a girl before (in 2005), and wasn't this sick. Not even close, so I'm not confirming a gender until I see the next ultrasound.)
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So, maybe I've had a little excuse. One about 3 inches long. It's not a Caterpillar yet, so to distinguish (even though they mean the same thing) we'll be using the term Larva for the wee Butterfly. Hopefully, as I begin to feel better, I'll get back into the swing of blogging. I uploaded many pictures last night that I can't wait to show everyone.
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As a side note, my Mum (Cookie) is obviously thrilled. To find out why she's over the moon as it were, visit here.
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~Lone Butterfly )i(
Sunday, August 17, 2008
CW (and B10) have been watching the Olympics every night. It's interesting, because this is very clearly the first Olympics they can remember. (B10 was only 4 during the Greece Olympics and wasn't even a year old when they were in Sydney. And CW is 2 years younger!) B10 (not unexpectedly) prefers to watch the competitions that involve individuals. Even the swimming, which he loves, gets "boring" when it's a relay race.
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
I love Alton Brown. I adore Alton Brown. In many ways, he is my hero - and he teaches my Caterpillars brilliant things that will serve them well, both in cooking and science.
Hubby has a favorite Mexican resturant that we've never eaten at as a family. Being allergic to all dairy products puts a damper on Mexican in my life in general, but he was feeling pretty eager a couple of weeks ago to introduce the Caterpillars to this "favorite place".
Here they are waiting for a seat. We arrived as soon as they opened and were the first family seated. Yay for us! Hot chips and salsa!
B10, of course, had to try the guac - he loved it, but kept telling us how he would alter the recipe. He cracks me up!
I had an okay lunch. The chips were delicious, but Mexican (again, because lack of dairy is pretty serious in Mexican food) just isn't my cup of tea. I can see the Caterpillars learning to love it, though and visit often with Hubby!
~Lone Butterfly )i(
Monday, August 4, 2008
I found a bunch of pictures on my camera from July, when the Caterpillars were gone. I figure the easiest thing to do will be to upload each event one and a time, and blog as I go.
After the playground we spent some time wandering through the shops and watching a couple of shows. Lunch was at my favorite resturant where they serve yeast rolls, fried dill pickles, and cinnamon fries (among other things).
As you can see, Little Sheep is as equally enthralled with Granddaddy's food as he is with his own. Granddaddy had fried okra! The face you see is Little Sheep begging for more fried okra to appear in his mouth! :)
Before Little Sheep went home to take his afternoon nap we went to the Backyard Circus. Little Sheep was more befuddled that impressed, I think.
After the Sheeps left for naptime, Granddaddy, Minnie Mouse, and I rode the train, did a little geocaching, and some highwire harness work. It was a great day, in a great place.
~Lone Butterfly )i(